Writing Exercise: Love Letter

I saw some link to a list of open love letters on twitter yesterday. I thought it would be a fun exercise to write a break up letter to someone you love dearly. I know, I'm messed up.

My Love,

I know you don’t deserve this. But I’m afraid, if we see each other, face-to-face, I may not have the courage to tell you what needs to be said.

Whenever I get close to you there’s a spark. It makes the hair on my neck stand on end. My skin burn when you graze your fingers along my leg. These are the reasons I can’t say this face-to-face. Fear that lust will overcome reason.

I may look back on this decision and regret it. More than likely when I feel alone in a loveless marriage, looking down at my children and wishing they were yours. That’s when it will hit me. This moment when I’m at complete clarity in my purpose, will be considered ill-advised. But looking now, with my head and not my heart, I know we are not in the same place. If we stay together—if we continue this course—I will have to put my life on hold. Call me selfish, call me whatever names you need to—just know—I love you. If only we could have met later in life. When our paths were the same and not these mixed signals we call relations.

But for now, I can’t.

Yours always,
L.